A needing in my bones and a needing in my heart A hurt borne of years and a hurt that falls apart When you’re near When you’re here The coming of the warmth and the coming of the light Burn in my soul and burn through the night Hold me close Hold me tight All I can do All that I am Is everything I can’t go back I devote myself to you All I can do All that I am Is laid out here with no backdoor giving all that I can A feeling of desire and a feeling so raw Held back for others and thought of as a flaw Give my all Give all of me There’s so much inside and I let it all go There’s too much to hide and I let it all flow This is me This is me All I can do All that I am Is everything I can’t go back I devote myself to you All I can do All that I am Is laid out here with no backdoor giving all that I can Was the beige and the greys saw the colors inside your eyes In the deep deep deep the deep deep deep with you Was the dull and the lulls From the lows up to the highs In the deep deep deep the deep deep deep with you A force moves me forward and a force makes me try The fear of never knowing and fear that I can’t fly Be my heart Be my guide I keep moving forward and there’s no going back Nothing that I’m missing and there’s nothing that I lack Give to you Give my heart All I can do All that I am Is everything I can’t go back I devote myself to you All I can do All that I am Is laid out here with no backdoor giving all that I can

On a cold winter day I saw you walk away It came as a surprise But I had known all along that this would be our fate For so long and a day Things had gone so astray It came as no surprise But I had hoped and closed my eyes and counted all the reasons why I had hoped and closed my eyes and tried Its fool’s gold every day The colors turn black to gray It came as a surprise But I had known truth be told there was more than I could see I controlled the haze I could only see the blaze It came as no surprise But I had hoped and closed my eyes and counted all the reasons why I had hoped and closed my eyes and tried I had hoped and closed my eyes and counted all the reasons why I had hoped and closed my eyes and tried Can you remember that moment together I looked into your eyes which were blank and dead Opened up my naïve young heart A beat then a murmur, thump thump thumping again My mother said just move along this one here will do you wrong My friend told me of her fear I told her it would disappear Assessed my heart and I knew love a golden blessing from above You held me close and shared my dream held me in such high esteem Thought I was seeing everything now I realize there’s more than everything I can remember that moment together You looked away when I became so vulnerable I thought it was just hesitation Then my heart fluttered, thump thump thumping again My father said he just wasn’t sure there was something there so obscure My sister told me she had another view but what she said could not be true Assessed my heart and I made the choice to listen only to my own voice You picked me up and then put me down stole away my golden crown Thought I was seeing everything now I realize there’s more than everything On a warm summer day I let you walk away It comes as a surprise But I had known all along that this would be our fate So the storm blows away The empty space does outweigh It came as no surprise But I had hoped and closed my eyes and counted all the reasons why I had hoped and closed my eyes and tried So I grow every day The darkness lights the way It came as a surprise But I had known truth be told there was more than I could see The lacunae of our lives Take shapes to our surprise It blinds us of some truths in life But I had hoped and closed my eyes and counted all the reasons why I had hoped and closed my eyes and tried I had hoped and closed my eyes and counted all the reasons why I had hoped and closed my eyes and tried

Emily, you’re so far away And its another endless day Where I can’t touch your flesh I can’t see your eyes While I know you’re still with me I need to realize Are you gonna be Do you want to be Are you gonna be with me I want to be with you I want to see this through I want to be with you for life When the sun comes down and I’m all alone my hand seeks out to find the phone just a text or a call to connect me to you When the day begins the dream then ends my hands seek out to make amends Just a touch just a touch to connect me to you There can’t be another Can’t try any harder Can’t go any faster Until I’ll be with you again Emily, you’re so far away It hurts me each and every day But I’m here cause I care and know we’ll be as one But I’m here cause I care and know we’ll be as one Are you gonna be Do you want to be Are you gonna be with me I want to be with you I want to see this through I want to be with you for life

Come to me I’ll hold you I know you Come to me You’re a part of my being Come to me I know this ain't easy Come to me I so want to love you Don’t you want me, I want you too Don’t you need me, I need you too Won’t you keep me, I’ll keep you too Won’t you love me, I’ll love you too Ohhhhh Ahhhhhhh Don’t you hurt me, Won’t hurt you too Don’t you leave me, Let’s see this through Won’t you free me, I’ll free you too Won’t you love me, I’ll love you too Ohhhhh Ahhhhhhh Come to me you know me I’ll show you Come to me I’m a part of your being Come to me I know this ain't easy Come to me I so want you to love me Don’t you want me, I want you too Don’t you need me, I need you too Won’t you keep me, I’ll keep you too Won’t you love me, I’ll love you too Ohhhhh Ahhhhhhh Don’t you hurt me, Won’t hurt you too Don’t you leave me, Let’s see this through Won’t you free me, I’ll free you too Won’t you love me, I’ll love you too Ohhhhh Ahhhhhhh And I know and I see And I feel all that you do And I go and I think what more can I do And I show I believe And I hear all that you say And I grow from the pain that doesn’t seem to go away And I cry when I see the distance from you to me And I try to comply with the rules unnecessary And I fly to the sky to soar back down to you And I die every day when the dream isn’t true Come to me I know you you know me Come to me I’ll come when you call me Come to me I know this ain't easy Come to me I so want to love you Don’t you want me, I want you too Don’t you need me, I need you too Won’t you keep me, I’ll keep you too Won’t you love me, I’ll love you too Ohhhhh Ahhhhhhh Don’t you hurt me, Won’t hurt you too Don’t you leave me, Let’s see this through Won’t you free me, I’ll free you too Won’t you love me, I’ll love you too Ohhhhh Ahhhhhhh

With a smile on my face I walk down the street Opening up to all The people I meet Some are good some are bad Never know our fate With both hope and fear We all must create we can’t wait to create Keep it down keep it down keep it down Time and again we understand the game Live and withstand hurt and be free some more Go near and far shame and pride’s charm relate High and then low dive down deep for love With a spark in my eye I receive the scene We all have the same needs same hopes same dreams Yet the color changes leaves on the ground mutate The colors run and bleed we all must create we can’t wait to create Keep it down keep it down keep it down Time and again we understand the game Live and withstand hurt and be free some more Go near and far shame and pride’s charm relate High and then low dive down deep for love Is it me, is it this world we live, I can’t understand Hatred we see, in what we give and take, I can’t understand Do or die, few get to decide, I can’t understand Is it me, is it this world we live, I can understand Love we see, in what we give and take, I can understand Do or die, we need to justify, I can understand With a hitch in my step I move on with life Seeing him seeing her his husband her wife Am I wrong am I right change today why wait What is wrong what is right create we can’t wait to create Keep it down keep it down keep it down Time and again we understand the game Live and withstand hurt and be free some more Go near and far shame and pride’s charm relate High and then low dive down deep for love

I don’t know and I try I can’t see the reasons why What might be I hold near drink it in what I so fear Eat me up from inside out metastasize pain pain pain pain I shout Scars of tomorrow haunt me today Scars of tomorrow can’t make them go away Scars of tomorrow the future they betray Scars of tomorrow I feel the pain I feel the pain today In my head can’t get out what might be what’s in doubt Make it real make it now perseverate how I allow Takes on life uncontrolled comes in me pain pain pain pain takes hold Scars of tomorrow haunt me today Scars of tomorrow can’t make them go away Scars of tomorrow the future they betray Scars of tomorrow I feel the pain I feel the pain today And I know and I want to rip the scars right from my mind All the pain that I sow that keeps me bound from moving on So I die every day that the pain remains with the deadly thoughts flowing through my brain Giving fuel for the fire til they explode while my peace and my hope they do erode And I know and I want to live the life that was meant for me Without woe without pain just the hopes and dreams of the common man So I strive every day that I sustain yet the doubt and the fear has free rein Feel the pain and the hurt of what can be feel the strain of the pain of everything I don’t know if it’ll end in this hell I descend Worst of all is what I make thirst for pain I can’t slake Try so hard to no avail life sentence pain pain pain pain this jail Scars of tomorrow haunt me today Scars of tomorrow can’t make them go away Scars of tomorrow the future they betray Scars of tomorrow I feel the pain I feel the pain

I wanted to tell you Wanted you to know Something inside me Said “Go slow” Its not really a lie Not really the truth But it kept on growing Scared to tell you Worse for waiting longer Worse to not come clean Didn’t want disappointment Didn’t want a scene So I doubled-down Bluffed my poison hand Just kept hoping Perhaps you’d understand Can’t tell you this secret Can’t give you the reasons Can’t want it but keep it I feel so guilty Can’t stop it too shameful I’m so ashamed to say I don’t wanna know what I know right now I don’t wanna know the shame I just wanna go and relive the day be your man again How was I to know what I know right now How was I to know the game I just wanna be without the blame be your man again What is there to know I don’t know right now Everything to know’s the same I just wanna hear you call my name be your man again A word, how powerful, a word holds such weight Its said, so carelessly, its said to protect The time, so shortsighted, the time ticks toward truth I come and I see and I hope and I dream of the type of life Where what we now do is where truth is the theme and there’s nothing unseen A whole dug too deep filled with nothing to keep but what I learned from you Where what I now do is to tell you the truth forgiveness is a virtue A fantasy fail I can make it so real if I am vulnerable The ghost of the past seems to always outlast my moral reasoning A haunting of sorts the scars and the warts I feel so hideous Just a white lie that can’t seem to die becomes insidious I want to tell you Want you to know Something inside me Like vertigo Spinning all around me A feeling I despise The deceit holding on Trust is the prize Don’t know how this happened Things just slipped away To make myself look better Not knowing what I’d pay Didn’t treat you with honor Didn’t treat you with care But we’re in this together Which means I have to share Can’t tell you this secret Can’t give you the reasons Can’t want it but keep it I feel so guilty Can’t stop it too shameful I’m so ashamed to say Must tell you this secret Must give you the reasons Must want to can’t keep it I feel so guilty Must stop it too shameful I’m so ashamed to say